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Susie

2008-11-11
steps: 14,474
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I have been missing for some time and I have to apologise t oall my contacts.I have been unfocused lately and walking has not been high on my list of priorities. However I realise that this is something that I need to do for myself and to not let things overwhelm me. Believe me when I say there has been a lot going on immy life lately and I just need to deal with this.

Pic is gum blossom.

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starwalker
posted November 11 4:41 am
No apology needed, Susie.  Check in when you are able and don't worry about it when you're not.  We'll take your word for it. :)  Your new camera must be awesome.  Such detail.
Susie
posted November 11 4:44 am
This was taken with the old one Starwalker.

My doughter Gen has been in and outof hospital all year and constantly talks of suicide, my grandson has cerebral palsy, my eldest daughter is going blind and my son who has not been in touch fo 28 years wants to come and visit.Not to see me, but to work through his issues. Talk about stress. I want to run away and hide.
starwalker
posted November 11 4:59 am
That certainly is a lot to deal with.  No wonder you're stressed.  Anyone there you can talk with to help you work through it?  If not, lay it on us.  We may not have any good suggestions but we'll listen 'til the cows come home and then the cows will listen some more I guess. :D  How about a nice {{{{{{hug}}}}}} in the meantime?  Your old camera rocks too!  I thought it had crapped out on you and that's why the new ones.
thinlynn
posted November 11 5:34 am
OH MY!!!  I know some of your pain, and stress, "Susie".  (Not all of course!) BUT...As Ed has mentioned here to you already, lay it on us....we will listen and tryto help as best as we can from "afar".  We love you dearly and always will!!  I hope you know that!!  :)
Susie
posted November 11 6:09 am
There is not much that even I can doLynn.I just need to let it wash over me. Gen has bipolar disorder and her body is going haywire. She has good doctors looking after her, so that is good. Alysia may be overstating things as she tends to be rather melodramatic, but is wheelchair bound and has been for some time. Cody is undergoing tests so there is not much I can do there either. Antony who refused to return to WA after my marriage break up shouldn't blame me for deserting him. He was 16 t the time and chose to stay. It just gets to me at times.

Thank you so much for caring Lynn.It helps a lot.
slsommer
posted November 11 6:19 am
Susie, we're here, period.

I know something about high stress, and it made me very sick indeed. Is there anyone nearby who can listen without judging? You do not have to solve all these problems for all these dear loved ones, loved though they are.

I am so glad you posted again; I knew the problems were large. Looking at the world through my camera does help me keep my perspective, maybe it can help you, too. You are in my prayers.
Susie
posted November 11 6:26 am
Susan walking became stressful. But now it is ok.I am gradually getting back into stride. Thank you for caring!
slsommer
posted November 11 6:32 am
Ok -- don't compete with the walking. Just look at the world -- it's an amazing place. I'm reminded of what Annie Dillard said in her book "Pilgrim at Tinker Creek." You know that book? She said she believes our final prayer will not be a "please," but a "thank you."

I can go with that.
Susie
posted November 11 6:48 am
Me too Susan.
chinds
posted November 11 7:39 am
Sorry to hear of all the stressful things going on in your life right now. From many of the posts on this site I think many of us are dealing with a lot of family issues and illness. I think it is actually harder to deal with things happening to family than to ourselves. If I am the one having a problem I can generally come up with a plan, if it is someone I love I just feel helpless.

So I will be thinking of you and hope that things soon improve or get back to a more balanced state for you. My only advice would be to be sure to take some time for you and do some things you love.
henross
posted November 11 10:07 am
Just chexking on recent posts...and there you are my dear Sheila!!! have missed you heaps!! will return later and catch up!!
henross
posted November 11 11:38 am
sometimes one has to be selfish...look after ones self, do what you need....if you dont do that, then you dont have any leftovers to give to others....so..look after yourself...all the others have their carers...you are family, and can only give love and support...if they ask and if they will receive!
and your son....they are his issues....expect it will be painful for you...but just remember you have done your best for him.....and hopefully he will work his way towards that truth.....is called growing up!

and now to something completely different... how is your summer weather doing??? here we all are in dark, gloom and rain..we all look foward to your sunny pics and reports of sun.... how is Jude doing??
Vista
posted November 11 11:43 am
there's not a lot i can reply to, most of our comrades have summed your issues in a nutshell, Susie you must take care of no 1,
Mary
posted November 11 7:36 pm
It's so good to hear from you again, Susie, but don't let walking add to your stress. All sorts of wisdom has been shared here. We're with you...
Susie
posted November 12 6:21 am
I have missed everyone too, so it is nice to be back here.

Ross our weather is dreadful. Coldish, wet and windy. Today was a bit warmer,but overcast!
debby80
posted November 12 12:16 pm
A big hug!!!
raeburnb
posted November 12 4:58 pm
A big hug to you, Susie!  It's nice to hear from you again, but you be sure to take care of yourself first.  I'm sorry you've got so much to deal with right now.  Hang in there!